I absolutely hate this time of the week. Sunday night, getting ready for bed, thinking about Monday and how much it's going to BLOW when that alarm goes off at 6 am (ok...and 6:25) and it's time to go back to work. That has not changed in the past 4 weeks. But what HAS changed in the past 4 weeks is how I am starting to look at food. Emphasis on "starting". As I mentioned in an earlier blog, I had a really good week this week. I ate well and I worked my ass off and it paid off. I'm down another 4.5 lbs!!! Yep...and then comes Sunday. Since yesterday I weighed in and I worked out I decided that I deserved to slack off a little bit today. It started with McDonald's breakfast. 1.5 breakfast sammies, a hashbrown and a peppermint mocha (with skim milk because I was obviously counting calories!) I'd also like to note here that it wasn't even that good. Just saying. But did it stop me from eating it? Hell no. Then a few hours later I had some chips and guacamole. Then a couple hours after that I had a homemade meatball sandwich, baked potato and salad for dinner. Then a few hours after that a piece of cheese pizza. Followed by some more chips and guacamole. And here you have me: bloated, gassy, ashamed and full of regret. I spent too many days over the past 28 years eating like I did today and where did it get me? Unhappy and very overweight. And it wasn't even worth it. That's all I keep thinking. It wasn't like I was eating at some five star, once in a lifetime restaurant in Europe. McDonald's and a meatball sandwich for cryin' out loud!!! I even said to my boyfriend at one point post gluttony, "I don't miss feeling like this after I've eaten". And that's the truth. I hate it. It's a miserable feeling that sits with you for hours after you've filled your body with crap. Nothing compared to that feeling I had when I ran 5 miles this week. I know I still have 71 lbs to go but I can FEEL the changes in my body as I've been running this week and that feeling is one of the best I have ever felt. Even with the 70+ lbs of extra weight I have felt stronger and leaner and...confident. And eating like an asshole today just sucks. Could I have indulged in one thing today? Sure. But I didn't need to go bat shit crazy the whole day because now I'm going to be spending the next 2-3 days working off ONE DAY of eating instead of adding to my current 16 lb weight loss. Frus-trat-ing.
Back at it tomorrow and determined to have another successful week. If Da Bears could recover today and pull out a 1 pt victory then I sure as hell can too!! Go Bears!
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